life is cool

I never really tried to be positive
I’m too damn busy being negative
So focused on what I get
I never understand what it means to live

You know we all love to just complain
But maybe we should try to rearrange
There’s always someone who’s got it worse than you
My life is…
My life is so cool, my life is so cool

Oh yeah, from a different point of view

My life is…
My life is so cool, my life is so cool
Oh yeah, from a different point of view

We’re all so busy trying to get ahead
Got a pillow of fears when we go to bed

We’re never satisfied
The grass is greener on the other side
So distracted with our jealousy
Forget it’s in our hands to stop the agony
Will you ever be content on your side of the fence?

My life is…
My life is so cool, my life is so cool

Oh yeah, from a different point of view

My life is…
My life is so cool, my life is so cool
Oh yeah, from a different point of view

Maybe you’re the guy who needs a second chance
Maybe you’re the girl who’s never asked to dance
Maybe you’re a lonely soul

A single mother scared and all alone
Gotta remember we live what we choose
It’s not what you say, it’s what you do
And the life you want is the life you have to make

My life is
My life is so cool, my life is so cool

Oh yeah, from a different point of view

My life is…
My life is so cool, my life is so cool
Oh yeah, from a different point of view

my life is…

need you now

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone ’cause I can’t fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call but I’ve lost all control and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call but I’ve lost all control and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now

Woah, woah
Guess I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn’t call but I’m a little drunk and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now, I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

it’s a quarter after one, i’m a little drunk and i need you now…

impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you’re done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

impossible…

why did i fall in love with you

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here
But you have chosen a different road

Why wasnt I able to convey to you?
My feelings that were growing everyday and night
The words begin to overflow
But I know they wont reach you now

From the first day that I met you
I felt like I knew you
And the two of us melded together so naturally

Wherever we would go, it would be together
It was so natural for you to be with me
We became adults together
But you chose a different road

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed,
I thought that you would always be here (but not anymore)

Today, the day that holds a special meaning
The day that you stood with a smile of happiness
Praying to God in your beautiful appearance

With the person next to you who isnt me
The image of you receiving blessings
How could I just stand aside and watch

So why did I end up falling for you?
We cant go back to that time, or how we were (Ive thought it through)

Why wasnt I able to take your hand?
No matter how much time passes
You always shouldve been by my side
Now it will never come true

But, even though I say that I need you close to me
I just pray that you will be happy forever
No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)

yes.. it will never come true…

The Greatest Unrequited Love

Normally you were so free in spirit –
What dream might you be chasing after now in this rain?
No matter where you might be battling with loneliness,
You were always holding back your tears, right?

You say “I’ll be all right even when alone.” – just like I do
Despite detours everywhere, for some reason, we have taken to this path.

In times of happiness or joy,
I’ll think of you
And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours,
Will convey these feelings of mine to you

Longing, liking, or dislike –
Though saying my feelings for you are of those seems somewhat wrong,
I want to ride on
That beautiful flow of yours

More than vague words or simple promises,
What I desire is the warmth of your hand, and a time only for the two of us

If you should feel sad,
Or if tomorrow [the future] can’t be clearly seen,
I, who wish you would rely on me,
Would continue to think of you

In times of happiness or joy,
I’ll think of you
And I am sure that this season, with its vivid colours,
Will convey these feelings of mine to you

what i desire is the warmth of your chest…

sorrie and thx…

‘baby are you down down down down down….’

yuppp… im reli down down down down down…

n kinda saddddd oso…

tat morning…

he wanted 2 pass me sth..

it was raining heavily n no transportation at all…

asking him 2 cum fetch though i noe its inconvenience 2 him…

he never reply me..

at d moment..

a bus came… ppl were rushing getting in..

including me…

d door closed…

*bus moving*

i saw HIS CAR!!!!!

moving d way tat i left jz now…

omggggg…

i missed it… missed his car…

tot he wont be appearing…

but d truth telling me tat..

my thought was wrong…

strongly feeling sorrie 2 him…

it was an incident…

sorrie… im reli sorrieeeee…

i didnt noe tat u’re on d way…

maybe its my fate…

fate tat couldnt gain anything from u…

by d way…

thx 4 fetching my frenz…

i’ve missed d chance again…

Friend

All day I’ve been wanting to see your face

I can’t seem to focus on any of my work

The smile on your face

when you sometimes stare at me

Without even realizing

I want to confess to you that I like you

I like being just a friend to you

If it means that I’ll be by your side

I don’t want to forget you

Cuz you’re my most important friend

you′re my best friend

but you can′t be my boy friend

Whenever I look at you,

You always look back at me as just a friend

you′re my everything

but I can’t confess to you

You live inside my heart

Whenever I’m staring at you

As nothing more than just a friend

Without even realizing my heart starts to hurt

I’m afraid that my true feelings will show

So I try to hide it to myself

I’m slowly growing further away from you

I like being just a friend to you

If it means that I’ll be by your side

I don’t want to forget you

Cuz you’re my most important friend

you′re my best friend

but you can′t be my boy friend

Whenever I look at you,

You always look back at me as just a friend

you′re my everything

but I can’t confess to you

You live inside my heart

From now on when I’m by your side

I’ll see you only as a good friend

But I’ll still cherish you

As much as I like you

you′re my best friend

but you can′t be my boy friend

Whenever I look at you,

You always look back at me as just a friend

you′re my everything

but I can’t confess to you

You live inside my heart

wonder when wil u noe bout all these feelings??

wat the hell 2day is….

damn busy 2day…

after acc mum… back home preparing my stuff..

cz START WORKING 2MR!!! finally…

(waiting almost 2 weeks d.. damn fucking long mannn)

tat s2p asked me 2 take back d failure delivered parcel…

okie.. i went.. BUT sumone has taken… damn shit!!!

wasting my time… summo gonna fetch yen 2 buy her stuff…

nvm… let go.. rush 4 appointment…

late bout 10 mins.. reli sorrie 2 my dear dentist…

alwez let him waiting 4 me nia~~ paiseh…

rush another round 2 fetch tat s2p…

tot kepong BUT KEPONG SENTRAL… wtf!!!

took a U-turn…

ajak louis 2 station 1 cafe yumcha… til late 6pm…

dismissal on!!!!

now.. JOURNEY STARTED!!!

shit man!! when we reached jalan duta…

fucking jam… cars suck 4 20 mins oso can move 5km!!

damn suffering… took small road… saved bout 20 mins i think…

CONTINUE JOURNEY…

wat the hell mannn!!! 20 more mins 2 reach jz JALAN ISTANA!!!

stuck in d road bout 10 mins..

suddenly tat s2p said BEH TAHAN.. wanna VOMITTT..

omggg… my domdom gg d..

stopped by roadside… bout 10 mins…

ppl passed by wanna gv help.. BT heard ‘muntah’…

all ran away!!! =.=”

luckily his weird thingy din fall on dom…

if not… my domdom cum vy smellyy d… =(

wanna bring him tee 2 change as he vomitted all over his body… yuckkk!!!!

UNFORTUNATELY..

tat s2p bring NTG!!! WTF!!

d decision is HALF-NAKED.. no choice at all..

summo no more water 4 him!! BAD LUCK!!

BACKED 2 JOURNEY…

jammed 4 20 more mins along sg besi highway…

reached alternative way…

supposingly turn left at d junction..

bt saw LONG QUEUE of CARS infront of d traffic light..

go straight… OMGGG.. jalat.. WRONG WAY!!

it’s heading 2 MRR2!! fuckinggg shittt…

faz faz turned d way 2 MINT HOTEL..

luckily.. it’s leading 2 d PALACE of GOLDEN HORSE…

pheeeewwwwwwwwwww

approaching our destination d… jz a few more mins…

yeahhhhh

HOWEVER…

tat s2p asked 2 STOPPPPPPP AGAIN!!!

oh my goshhhh

‘rest’ bout 5 mins…

haihhhhh….

all mood gone…

why alwez getting vomit while sitting my car ya?!

CAR SICKNESSSSSS…. zzzzzzzzzz

yayaya.. i noe my driving skills damn bad larrr…

dun feel like wanna fetch u anymoreeeeeeeeee…

fed up d!!!!!!!!!

but u STIL wanna me 2 fetch u here n der…

sienzzzzzzzzzzz

though we are closest frenz…

bt sumtimes ur jz 2 mean…

im nt here 2 u 4 EVERYTHINGGGGGGGGG…

REACHED DESTINANATION…

hv been sucks in d traffic jam more than 2 HRs!!!! WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!

traffic phobia!!!!

d journey NVR ENDED yet….

after opening d door…

switched on d light……

OH SHIT!!!!

d kithchen is messed up…

d cup is nt cleaned properly…

d worst… is d FRIDGE!!

d coke’s been keeping 4 couple of weeks…

d liquid started leaking out of d paper cup..

gone through d bottom part of d fridge…

fuckerrr!!!!!!!!!!

hv 2 clean it up my own againnnnnnnnnn

wat the hell 2day is?!

damn unfortunate~~~~

wonder when it lasting??????

coffee… beer…

back from ipoh couple days ago…

gained experience as expected…

bt stil learnt something new!!!!

made some new frenz though… =)

wat i could rmb these couple of days is..

every morning.. noon.. evening… or night…

i holding a cup of  COFFEE.. white coffee…

sitting at the dark corner of kopitiam…

like an old man with lots of sad stories…

heart filling with scars and pains…

watched ‘orphan’ with yen and cr…

SCREAMED at the last part…

they kept laughing at me…

too BADDDDDDD man…

hv a thought of drinking BEER 2nite…

(nobody agrees… nobody disagrees…)

bought a bottle of TIGER BEER.. HEINEKEN.. SHANDY…

total 30++ buckss…

wth… my whole week pocket money GONE!!!!

now nie realize tat how damn f*** expensive the beer is…

regret that never drink or buy gaogao in langkawi…

(whispering in heart)

wat a gud feeling of getting drunk!!

it’s awesome…

wat a fresh feeling 2 me?!

after drinking..

my head cum vy heavy…

as i drank as many as i could….

as fast as possible…

2  fulfill my loneliness…

my long lasting loneliness….

anyway..

it’s not working at all..

the more i drunk the more loneliness i gained…

tears playing rhythm in my heart at the moment..

not romantic… not cheerful..

but sorrow…

which made ppl depressed in the rest of the days…

even MJ who r.i.p also be able 2 feel my words..

where’s the end of loneliness??

envy…

yo!!! finished exams FINALLLLYYYY… phew…

bt stil left intb.. which is 2 weeks later.. =(

got a bad feeling tat i’ll get bad results 4 dis sem..

sighhhh…

however, 090909 was pui2’s bday!!!

happie burfday 2 u chew pui ^^

s2p yk gonna hv a big celebration wit her…

which wil be at A-6-8… hehehehee..

he’ll be cookin’ !!!!!

(yk, cook 4 us too!!!! LOL)

as wat we’ve planned…

after all preparation..

we(vin & me) heading 2 pui’s hse…

bt b4 tat, we went connaught night market..

since it’s stil early.. heeheee

after half an hour walk…

we walked back 2 d car & go fetch pui luuuu…

so excited… ^^

she’s wearin’ a black dress wit small black handbag..

and abit of make-up.. so prettieeeeeeee XD

ermmm.. here started our job — blindfold pui…

jz like we kidnappin’ her…

felt guilty jz nw..

sorrie ya pui… T.T

after reachin’ condo..

i guiding her 2 d hse..

wowww… so nice!!!!!

so romantic der…

cant imagine tat yk decorated d hse so nice

wit tiny candles…

d yellow lightning made d hse looked different!!!!!!!!!

start envy pui d… T.T

when’s my turn huh?? hehhehee

yk was wearin’ a black coat wit roses…

waitin’ 4 his princess…

pui stil blindfolded anyway…

i left both of dem as fast as possible..

den hang out wit vin…

‘Kung Fu Cyborg’

wat a s2p funny movie huh?!

we laughed & could rmb ntg bout d movie..

wth… K-1, i love u!!!

esp when u transformed into robot.. so yeng!!!! (woohoo~~)

haihhh…. when 2 watch the Final Destination??

summo ‘Where got GHOST‘ & ‘G-FORCE’ are coming soooonnnnnnn….

dunno got time 2 watch onot.. sobs

2mr starting my new journey… ipoh…

hope everything will be okay…

when’s my turn 2 cum d PRINCESS????